No one matters but me

No one matters but me. I mean it. I know, it sounds selfish... and I don't really care.

When I was growing up I listened to my mother and my father. They had dreams for me and they had their own issues they were working through. There I was, a child, soaking up everything like a sponge, trying to become that version of me that I thought would please everyone around me. Its really what most of us do. We want to be good, worthy, honorable and enough. We want people to say that we did a good job and that we are smart or beautiful. I know those things about myself not because someone told them to me but because many people said the opposite.

I am not bitter. I realize that there are dark invisible powers that rub against us to make us feel like losers. Many people don't realize they are sent with darkness to destroy others by telling them things that make them f