

"I WANT TO HURT YOU"
"I want to hurt you!!!", words rarely spoken but acted in practice by billions of people daily. You may have heard the saying, "Hurt people hurt people" and oh how true it is. What compels another person to seek you out, target you and intentionally try to make you hurt: Emptiness. There is a hollowness of soul that you may have never known and thank God for that. Some people feel empty, whether situationally or in general. They feel thrown away and disregarded by life cir


Get it out!
When you have things bottled up inside of you, get them out! The word disease is exact; DIS Ease. Sickness of the heart, mind or body many times starts with emotions. Emotions are the "feelings" that cause people to make life-altering decisions and have literally run the world at times. They cause people to dream, to relocate and even in the worse scenarios, to kill. If these emotions are so powerful, allowing them to stay trapped inside of your body can have destructive re


When it's safe.
Hello loves, I want to talk about safety. How do you know when something is "safe". My opinion is that generally there is no real knowing. Life throws curve balls at us daily; You can be driving through a canyon and a rock can fall on you. You can be running on your regular route when an unleashed dog comes at you unexpectedly. There is no predicting the future, only hoping for the best while still preparing for the worst. When I searched online, "safety" was defined as


From the Heart
Life is not as long as we often feel it is. How many people left before they knew they would? So many that I know and have heard of. And so today I encourage you to live from the heart: Love from your heart, dream from your heart, forgive from your heart, hold on with your heart. When you were a child, you weren't afraid to grab the neck of the person you loved or cry when you were hurting. That was freedom until someone told you to suck it up and be strong, until life tau


Better Me than YOU
I love people. I am a giver. I want the best for those around me. If you're a normal person, this is probably true about you too. We all want to see those around us smile. I live to make others happy.... at least I used to. When happiness is achievable, we are both happy. When happiness cost one of us something, I will no longer choose you over myself. I used to think that doing that was pious, like that martyrdom made me a good person. In the end I was resentful beca
Thank you for the pain
Thank you for the rejection, it taught me how to embrace. Thank you for the embrace, it taught me hold to hold on. Thank you for the pain, it taught me how endure. Thank you for the jokes, they taught me how to laugh. Thank you for the grief, it taught me how to exhale. Thank you for the compliments, they reminded me I am worth it. Thank you for the lies, they taught me how to tell the truth. Thank you for the truth, it set me free. Thank you for the harsh words, it taught me


The silence is loud
I like words; They are art. I can express everything I'm feeling with letters and numbers. When I release them I feel fulfilled. Words give life to others and to me so understanding can come. Although I know some people use words for harm and I have in the past, I use them now for good. They build, they uplift, they can encourage and also mend. Silence is also like words. Silence speaks when words fail us. It says look into my eyes, watch my body move.... respect me with


The Player
Mood: Irritated. In all of life, we must play a game. When we go to work, we are conditioned to behave in a way that is professional. In social settings we learn to follow social norms to be accepted; and in relationships, we play the game of hiding until we are comfortable. Those are normal games that people play in order to go with the flow and fit in. In truth, society does need structure in order to function properly and so to some degree I agree that the game must b


That green eyed monster
Ok ok, so I put a picture of myself here ONLY because I have green eyes and not because I relate to the title of this blog. Being jealous of other people, even with all of the problems I've had in life, is not really my thing. I have a unique understanding. I really believe God placed me on this earth with a specific purpose, through which He guides me daily. I am in it right now. I live it and it is beautiful, with all of its imperfections. Because of this, I don't really


The present of absence
Do not be afraid to turn your back on anything hurtful in your life. Give to yourself and to others the present of absence. We live in fear many times; Fear of rejection, fear of loss and fear of time spent without result. There is no such thing. During the times we spend we learn and grow and we become better people hopefully. When it is time to walk away from something we are often afraid that we will lose out or won't be able to handle the hurt that comes from it. The